Institutional and systemic failure

Being harmed or failed while in the military institution

Being harmed within the military institution itself. A chain of command that failed to protect you, covered up harm, or actively participated in it. Reporting something and having it go nowhere or being retaliated against for reporting. The institution of the military failing the people inside it.

Being failed by the military institution, the command that did not protect you, the report that went nowhere, the retaliation for speaking, is a betrayal by something you may have been willing to die for. That inversion cuts deep. Your service was real, and so was the institution's failure to deserve it.

What can follow an experience like this

No two people carry the same experience the same way. These are some of the effects that people with this experience often describe. Having some of them, all of them, or none of them says nothing about how real what happened to you was.

PTSD After certain experiences, the brain can get stuck, replaying what happened through flashbacks, nightmares, or sudden intense reactions to things that remind you of it. Hypervigilance The nervous system that learned to scan for danger all the time. Trust issues Trust that was broken, repeatedly, by people who were supposed to be safe. Depression Not just sadness. Problems with authority The original experiences with authority figures, parents, teachers, institutions, abusers, shaping the automatic response to anyone who holds power. Rage Anger that comes fast, feels bigger than the situation, or has caused harm to relationships or situations. Loss of meaning The questions that will not resolve. Spiritual injury Something happened and the belief system that held your world together stopped holding.

Nothing on this page is a diagnosis, and nothing here decides what is wrong with you, because nothing is wrong with you. Something happened to you. This page exists so that when you are ready, you can find people who understand it from the inside.

You do not have to carry this alone.

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