An effect of trauma
Hypervigilance
The nervous system that learned to scan for danger all the time. Light sleeper. Always aware of exits. Reading people's moods the moment you walk into a room. Startling easily. Difficulty relaxing because relaxing felt dangerous once. The hypervigilance kept you safe. The cost is that it never fully turns off even when the threat is gone.
The scanning kept you alive, and it does not accept a thank-you and a retirement notice. It stands down slowly, through accumulated evidence of safety, not through being told to relax. Time spent in genuinely safe company is that evidence. It is how a nervous system learns, one uneventful hour at a time, that it can rest.
It can sound like
If any of those sentences live in your head too, you are in good company here.
Nothing on this page is a diagnosis, and nothing here decides what is wrong with you, because nothing is wrong with you. Something happened to you. This page exists so that when you are ready, you can find people who understand it from the inside.
You do not have to carry this alone.
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