War, conflict, and organized violence

Surviving a terrorist attack or mass violence event

Being present during a terrorist attack, mass shooting, bombing, or other large scale violent event. Surviving something that was designed to cause maximum harm to as many people as possible. The randomness of it, the scale of it, and the way it reorganizes your sense of safety in the world.

Surviving an event designed for maximum harm scrambles the ordinary math of safety, because it could have been anyone and it was you. Crowds, exits, anniversaries, and loud sounds may all be different now. Survivors of these events often heal best alongside people who understand that the randomness itself was part of the wound.

What can follow an experience like this

No two people carry the same experience the same way. These are some of the effects that people with this experience often describe. Having some of them, all of them, or none of them says nothing about how real what happened to you was.

Hypervigilance The nervous system that learned to scan for danger all the time. PTSD After certain experiences, the brain can get stuck, replaying what happened through flashbacks, nightmares, or sudden intense reactions to things that remind you of it. Insomnia Difficulty falling asleep. Depression Not just sadness. Startle response The nervous system calibrated to danger will flinch at sounds, movements, or surprises that others barely notice. Anxiety The background hum of dread that is always there. Survivor's guilt A persistent sense that you should not have survived, or should have done more, or that your survival came at someone else's expense. Loss of meaning The questions that will not resolve.

Nothing on this page is a diagnosis, and nothing here decides what is wrong with you, because nothing is wrong with you. Something happened to you. This page exists so that when you are ready, you can find people who understand it from the inside.

You do not have to carry this alone.

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