Neglect

Being left alone when you were too young to be alone

Being left to care for yourself, or for younger siblings, at an age when you needed an adult present. Coming home to an empty house regularly. Being responsible for things a child should not be responsible for.

Children who raised themselves tend to grow into adults who are impressively capable and quietly exhausted. When you were your own parent at seven, asking anyone for anything can feel foreign for the rest of your life. Around here, plenty of people know exactly what an empty house after school felt like, and what it cost to act like it was normal.

What can follow an experience like this

No two people carry the same experience the same way. These are some of the effects that people with this experience often describe. Having some of them, all of them, or none of them says nothing about how real what happened to you was.

Hypervigilance The nervous system that learned to scan for danger all the time. Anxious attachment Holding on hard. Emotional numbing Not depression exactly. Insomnia Difficulty falling asleep. Anxiety The background hum of dread that is always there. Fear of being abandoned Not just not wanting people to leave. Loneliness This is different from pulling away. C-PTSD When trauma happened repeatedly, over a long time, or at the hands of people who were supposed to care for you, the effects go deeper than a single event.

Nothing on this page is a diagnosis, and nothing here decides what is wrong with you, because nothing is wrong with you. Something happened to you. This page exists so that when you are ready, you can find people who understand it from the inside.

You do not have to carry this alone.

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