Neglect

Being cared for by someone whose untreated mental illness meant they could not really care for you

A parent or caregiver who was so consumed by their own untreated struggles that there was nothing left for you. Not cruelty, just absence. Which has its own kind of weight.

There is a particular grief in being raised by someone who was drowning in something you could not see and nobody named. You may have spent childhood feeling guilty for needing anything at all. That absence was not your fault, and the weight of it landed on you anyway. It is worth taking seriously now.

What can follow an experience like this

No two people carry the same experience the same way. These are some of the effects that people with this experience often describe. Having some of them, all of them, or none of them says nothing about how real what happened to you was.

Hypervigilance The nervous system that learned to scan for danger all the time. Anxious attachment Holding on hard. Emotional numbing Not depression exactly. C-PTSD When trauma happened repeatedly, over a long time, or at the hands of people who were supposed to care for you, the effects go deeper than a single event. Depression Not just sadness. Shame Not guilt about something you did. Anxiety The background hum of dread that is always there. Codependency The person who holds everyone else together while quietly falling apart.

Nothing on this page is a diagnosis, and nothing here decides what is wrong with you, because nothing is wrong with you. Something happened to you. This page exists so that when you are ready, you can find people who understand it from the inside.

You do not have to carry this alone.

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