Institutional and systemic failure

Being re-traumatized by systems when you sought help

Going to a system or institution for help after something happened to you and being harmed again in the process. Being disbelieved, dismissed, blamed, or subjected to procedures that compounded your original trauma. The particular wound of reaching out and finding that reaching out made things worse.

Reaching out for help and being harmed by the helping process itself teaches a lesson that can seal a person off from support for years. If you were disbelieved, blamed, or processed through procedures that reopened everything, your hesitancy to try again is understandable. This place was built by people who know that lesson and wanted somewhere it does not apply.

What can follow an experience like this

No two people carry the same experience the same way. These are some of the effects that people with this experience often describe. Having some of them, all of them, or none of them says nothing about how real what happened to you was.

Hypervigilance The nervous system that learned to scan for danger all the time. Trust issues Trust that was broken, repeatedly, by people who were supposed to be safe. Depression Not just sadness. Shame Not guilt about something you did. Anxiety The background hum of dread that is always there. Problems with authority The original experiences with authority figures, parents, teachers, institutions, abusers, shaping the automatic response to anyone who holds power. Loss of meaning The questions that will not resolve. Hyper-independence You can give endlessly.

Nothing on this page is a diagnosis, and nothing here decides what is wrong with you, because nothing is wrong with you. Something happened to you. This page exists so that when you are ready, you can find people who understand it from the inside.

You do not have to carry this alone.

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