Institutional and systemic failure

Being failed or harmed by a government or state agency

Being failed by a government agency that had responsibility for your welfare. Immigration authorities. Benefits systems that denied what you needed. State agencies that had power over your life and used it badly or failed to use it when they should have.

Being failed by an agency that held power over your welfare, benefits denied, cases mishandled, bureaucracy weaponized, is harm delivered with a case number. Fighting a faceless system that cannot be argued with leaves a specific exhausted rage. That rage makes sense. You needed a lifeline and received a queue, and the failure was structural, not personal.

What can follow an experience like this

No two people carry the same experience the same way. These are some of the effects that people with this experience often describe. Having some of them, all of them, or none of them says nothing about how real what happened to you was.

Trust issues Trust that was broken, repeatedly, by people who were supposed to be safe. Problems with authority The original experiences with authority figures, parents, teachers, institutions, abusers, shaping the automatic response to anyone who holds power. Loss of meaning The questions that will not resolve. Learned helplessness When nothing you did made a difference, when effort did not produce safety, when asking for help did not bring help, the nervous system eventually stops asking. Depression Not just sadness. Shame Not guilt about something you did. Anxiety The background hum of dread that is always there. Rage Anger that comes fast, feels bigger than the situation, or has caused harm to relationships or situations.

Nothing on this page is a diagnosis, and nothing here decides what is wrong with you, because nothing is wrong with you. Something happened to you. This page exists so that when you are ready, you can find people who understand it from the inside.

You do not have to carry this alone.

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