Abandonment

Losing contact with a sibling for years, not knowing if you'd find them again

Losing touch with a sibling for years, not through their death but through adoption, foster care, a family split, distance, or something else, without knowing if or when you would find them again. Including years spent searching, years spent not searching, and a reunion that may or may not have happened yet.

Some losses have an ending you can point to. This one usually does not, at least not for a long time. A sibling out there somewhere, alive as far as you know, with no way to reach them. People tend to treat this as smaller than losing a sibling to death, because technically there is still a chance. That chance is exactly what makes it so hard to put down.

What can follow an experience like this

No two people carry the same experience the same way. These are some of the effects that people with this experience often describe. Having some of them, all of them, or none of them says nothing about how real what happened to you was.

Prolonged grief Grief that did not follow the expected path. Loss of meaning The questions that will not resolve. Loneliness This is different from pulling away. Ambiguous loss Grieving someone or something without the loss ever fully resolving. Depression Not just sadness. Anxiety The background hum of dread that is always there. Spiritual injury Something happened and the belief system that held your world together stopped holding. Self-abandonment When you grew up learning that your needs were inconvenient, dangerous, or simply irrelevant, you stopped tracking them.

Nothing on this page is a diagnosis, and nothing here decides what is wrong with you, because nothing is wrong with you. Something happened to you. This page exists so that when you are ready, you can find people who understand it from the inside.

You do not have to carry this alone.

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