An effect of trauma
Harming others
Having done to someone else something close to what was done to you. Hitting, threatening, frightening, humiliating, or controlling another person. Sometimes in a rage that felt like it came from nowhere, sometimes coldly and deliberately. Being harmed young makes this more likely and it does not make it acceptable, and both of those are true at once. Most people who end up here have known for a long time and have had nowhere to say it.
If someone is in danger from you right now, that needs action today, outside this site. Tell someone who can act, and put distance between you and them while you do it. Past that, this is one of the hardest things a person can say out loud, and saying it is the beginning of it stopping rather than proof that you are beyond help. What you did is yours to answer for. What was done to you is real too. People do change this, and almost nobody changes it alone or in silence.
It can sound like
If any of those sentences live in your head too, you are in good company here.
Nothing on this page is a diagnosis, and nothing here decides what is wrong with you, because nothing is wrong with you. Something happened to you. This page exists so that when you are ready, you can find people who understand it from the inside.
You do not have to carry this alone.
Bridge of Hope Recovery is a free, anonymous, peer-led fellowship for trauma survivors. Meetings run throughout the week by phone, by video, and in person. No cost, no waitlist, no one asking for your real name.