An effect of trauma
DID
Dissociative Identity Disorder, usually shortened to DID. Experiencing yourself as more than one. Parts that hold different ages, different jobs, different feelings about the same thing. A part that copes, a part that is furious, a part that is very young and frightened. Losing time, or finding evidence of things you do not remember doing. When a child has to survive something unsurvivable, keeping the unbearable in a separate place is a solution, not a defect.
DID is not a sign that something went wrong with you. It is a sign that something went wrong to you, early and repeatedly, and that a child found a way through it that worked. Most people find things settle when parts stop being fought and start being listened to. That is slow work, and it is a great deal easier around people who are not startled by any of it.
It can sound like
If any of those sentences live in your head too, you are in good company here.
Nothing on this page is a diagnosis, and nothing here decides what is wrong with you, because nothing is wrong with you. Something happened to you. This page exists so that when you are ready, you can find people who understand it from the inside.
You do not have to carry this alone.
Bridge of Hope Recovery is a free, anonymous, peer-led fellowship for trauma survivors. Meetings run throughout the week by phone, by video, and in person. No cost, no waitlist, no one asking for your real name.